Mindfulness is a cyclical thing. We have it, lose it, pick it up again, lose it again, renew it again, and on and on and on.
But that’s not what we want, is it? We should be able to decide to be mindful, right here and now, and simply do it! And from then on, maintain clarity continuously and reap the benefits of unbroken connection with this living moment.
At some point, after striving for perfectly continuous mindfulness and failing, you finally give up the idea that you’re perfect and just let yourself be human. No more expectation to be clear every moment, so now you can relax! Like the way you feel after buying a brand new car – you’re on edge, avoiding parking places where someone else might scrape it and hyper aware of traffic situations that could lead to a fender-bender. But after it gets that inevitable first scratch, you’re actually relieved. Now you can relax and drive naturally.
Same with mindfulness, and most aspects of spiritual paths for that matter. You bump into clear evidence that you’re simply a human being, and not an enlightened-every-instant sage, and finally let that delusion go. This is much better!